Note to my *slightly* younger self.
Hey,
Do you remember the first time you realized you wanted to go UP? Yes, that day. You were sitting on your living room couch with your mom and out of nowhere you spoke loudly, “Ma, gusto ko pumasok ‘don” while gesturing to what it seems to be a news report that featured the university.
Do you remember your first role model? Ah yes, Shamcey Supsup. Architecture Licensure Exam Topnotcher and Miss Universe 2011 3rd runner up.
Do you remember the first time you sat at your desk chair and attempted to review for your College Entrance Exams? That day, yes. I’m sure you remember being overwhelmed and freaking out because you think you’re running out of time.
And do you remember? Do you remember the first time you knew you passed the UPCAT? You unconsciously entered a fancy restaurant and said yes to everything the cashier offered you. Ah, too much many wasted there, my friend.
Do you still remember? All of them?
I hope you do, because all of those represent your yearning to achieve your dreams.
You’ve already gone far, I mean not too far, but you’re not the dumb, clueless kid that you used to be before.
You have improved, you’ve become better, and I’m so proud of you. I’m sure a lot of other people are too.
Now, what I want you to do is appreciate and give credit to yourself for all the things you have done. You may have failed a couple of times, embarrassed yourself more than the fingers in both your hands. But you’re still standing there like nothing happened, and sometimes your resilience is more than enough.
Yes, college is tough. But you know what’s tougher? You. You’ve overcome too much difficulty at this point and there’s no reason to quit now. It’s okay to be weak, but don’t make it too often, okay?
Cancel all that false positivity. Nothing’s ever going to get better. You know that. But you, you can get better.
Stop the self-deprecation, my friend. It’s not cute, nor is it quirky. It’s not good for you and will only contribute to your self-decay.
And remember, even if it’s hard to believe, not everyone hates you.
You’re doing nice, you should keep going.
Without wax,
Ezy
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