Four months have passed and it was one extreme roller coaster ride with all the twists and turns and the ups and downs. It was a semester full of sleepless nights, stressful days, and overwhelming requirements. Nevertheless, it was still a period of change, growth, and acceptance. If you would ask me, I wouldn’t have this semester any other way, but if I would have the chance to go back and give my older self some advice this is what I’ll tell her:
Dear Kristina Isabel,
Here you are, in your dream school, finally living the dream. Right now, I know you are full of uncertainty and self-doubt. You ask yourself, “Will I ever be enough?” or “Is this the right path for me?” And that is completely okay. A bigger environment can really be overwhelming. This semester will be a battle and I hope that through these tips you will be armed and ready for it.
First, I want you to always remind yourself that you are strong and capable, it was you that brought yourself here. You have prepared enough, you have sacrificed your mental and physical health, and you gave it your best. Despite all your struggles you came out strong. Please do not belittle your capabilities, please use them to fight.
Second, I want you to feel your emotions, you cannot be strong always, the number of requirements can tire you up. Giving your best and still not meeting the standard can make you feel hopeless. You will face many setbacks and its okay. You can be sad just as you are allowed to be happy. It’s okay to not look your best. It’s okay to show the world that you can be vulnerable because pretending can only eat you up and tire you more.
Third, always do your best, listen to your professors, take down notes, review your lessons, prepare for your tests, and submit your requirements on time. This will not be easy, especially if you have to do this for all your other subjects. It takes practice, do it bit by bit, and in the end, it will just be a routine to you. Do not procrastinate, you do not have all the time you need in college so do things while you can, this will not just lessen your workload but it will also avoid you from cramming. And trust me, if you do not cram your outputs, you’re likely to submit better ones and get better grades.
Fourth, have a support system. I have to stress out that college wouldn’t be easy but having friends can lighten up the load. In your first semester, you will meet your super classmates. Each of you wouldn’t have a clue on how college works, but I tell you, it will be best to figure all of it out with them. From lunch breaks to vacant schedules to staying up late to do school works, your super classmates will stick with you through thick and thin. So, treasure them. Sometimes, even if you think you’re strong enough and you can do everything alone, there will be a point in your life where you’ll need help and support. When things get tough and workloads become hard to handle, it’s nice to think that you’re not battling everything alone. You may be away from home, but I assure you that you will find a family in the people you will meet.
Fifth and last, live in the moment and set your goals. You only live once, Kristina, but it’s not a life you should live recklessly. You have to know why you do what you do. You have to know in your heart who you are doing it for. Everyone has their purpose, sometimes it’s not just clear to everyone what that purpose is. You then have to explore to discover it. Things will get easier when you know how your efforts will turn out in the future and how you will be able to impact others through what you do and what you will be. So keep that in mind, learn to love what you do and everything will come into place.
I wish you the best of luck, college will just be the beginning. There will be a life ahead that will be much harder. But I want you to know that after you have won a lot of battles, you will be a warrior, a warrior who’s ready to fight, a warrior who will come back after the setbacks, and a warrior who sacrifices, not just for her own benefit, but for the benefit of those whom she bled for.




