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I have been inside the university for a year and a month. How am I supposed to squeeze all of it in one entry??? HOW?!
Generally, it is fun. Duh UP?? Not fun??? I met a lot of friends, family I made, friends specifically for parties, acad-mates and all. I met a lot, actually. That is college life, is not it?
But not always it is fun. I have a lot of break downs coupled with break outs. Clear skin who? ERROR 404. Living 9 hours away from home is a hell. I have been solo for sometime in my home. My sisters are way older than me, they went to college when I was little. So, I was alone with my parents. I am: BABY. Few weeks in, I was okay, but sepanx (separation anxiety) kicked in. Every after a call my mom and I had, I cry. Such pettiness, though. But I adjusted because of my roommates. They came from my province too and my former classmates. They became home in an unfamiliar place. I am grateful of them.
I feel so BOBO and unfit for UP. The insecurity is severe. It seems people are way brighter than me, well yes in some ways, but I have come to realize that there are things I am better than them. Not that I am comparing myself to other, but you know, you cannot just think about yourself. You should learn that everyone has strengths as well as weaknesses. You need to acknowledge it because that is when one grow. That is one thing I have realized in my year here in UPLB.
As a former food science and technology student, hard science for me was hard. I was an ABM student as well in my SHS years, so I was SHOOKEDT to core with UP science. Now I am in development communication, I thought it was easy. I was wrong. Like my perception about UP students being better in all aspects, there is this variation of difficulty per person, but I am trying my best because I believe I can be better.
Well, I am kind of amused with freshies this semester, as I am ahead of them but still being my classmates, their freshie energy is so up there. I mean, I was a freshie last year, but the energy was different. Being classmates with them in a large class and being the “marginalized” with my co-shiftees seem to be a cute feeling. We are not the most bibo in the class and they will try to push themselves more. I would like to achieve their energy again.
Anyways, my year and a month in UPLB was a ride I would always reminisce, I will not try to repeat all of it, but I would like to learn from all of my mistakes and improve what I did right. I got few more years in the university, I will enjoy it and try to learn from all aspects that devcom teaches the students.












