Living in this world for almost two decades and yet, still clueless about my future.
Back in my lower years, I have never been this clueless about my future. I have pictured myself being in different professions — chef, soldier, and computer scientist. As I remember, I was in elementary when I wanted to become a chef even though I didn’t have any reason why I wanted to be in that profession. I was still in elementary when my mind has changed and decided to be a soldier in the future. There are two reasons behind this: one because I wanted to help people in need by serving our country and two because my sister told me so. My family was always very supportive of what I want and they never forced me to be someone I don’t want to be. I just said yes on being a soldier because the reason somehow suited what I wanted back then.
I was in high school when I have realized that being a soldier wasn’t even my interest. I loved using computers and had always wondered how things inside it are made. That’s when I have decided that I was going to pursue the course of Computer Science when I go to college. But when my senior high school years were almost meeting its end, I realized that the said course wasn’t the one that was in my heart. Development Communication was one of my choices when I took UPCAT. Unfortunately, I didn’t pass the test so I applied for reconsideration with DevCom being my first choice. And thankfully, the University of the Philippines offered me a slot for this course.
As ironic as it may sound, I love seeing books but I don’t really like reading that much. Books are just pleasing to my eyes. I do read, but only if the book does interest me, but if it does not, I wouldn’t read it unless I have to. And now, I hate myself for not making reading as one of my hobbies for it is very important to a student taking Development Communication.
I do love writing when I don’t have to think about deadlines; when I just have to write things for myself. When I was in eighth grade, I was a blogger in WordPress. I did love posting things that were happening in my everyday life and my opinions about different issues. But I deleted my blog for a reason that I thought my life wasn’t worth sharing yet. And after that, I never wrote any more.
Living in this world is never easy. I am just one of those people who still can’t figure out what they want to be in the future. Those who are still unaware of the skills in them that have to be enhanced. It’s hard to find your place in this world when you, yourself isn’t sure what you’re capable of. But of course, one thing is for sure; I’m open to new learnings and experiences despite of being naive. I want to hone my writing skills and whatever skills I have by also helping people in need. I love the feeling when I see people smile because I have done something for them. I hope that after years of taking Development Communication at the University of the Philippines Los Baños, I would be a girl that has finally found my place in this world.
Clueless, no more. Indeed.
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